There nothing last….

I don't know what I should do at this moment. It seems pretty hard to understand what is really happening out there. Once upon a time, I can simply breathe the same air; I can speak the same language. However, at this moment, they had change. You are standing too far… I can't see you anymore. I wonder how nothing last.

I've been looking for very long time but for the time being, there is something is not working. Something missing likes incomplete part. Or it is a sign that I am the one who ignorance. I'm performing loser. I play dumb on purpose. I'm so sick. I'm missed the sign. Cannot turn back to read because I think it's too late... because I'm not that smart to understand. I just don't know how to be in that way because it's not my thing. I wonder how nothing last...

In the blink of eyes, we lost everything, they are gone; Love, life, money, pride, confidence is blow away. Hey~ listen!! Never choose to stay in the safe zone because you start losing everything. Do not choose to stay still watching the world moving because they never waiting for you because nothing last man… You better not talking because it's not working. I'm going nowhere hence its end tonight.... nothing last forever… I'm losing grip... I wonder how nothing last...

you can say no… say no… say no… and say no…I don't care... what should I?

Allah Hu Rabbi. I think it is the best time for me to look for some sign. I don't want to make my move. I want to play deaf and blind. I want to say yes all the time. Indeed, only Allah knows what inside there. I want to stay still. No backward, no forward. Let the world move on its own. I just want to watch from the dark spot. I wonder how nothing last...

Ya Allah, I'm the sinner who make a thousand of mistake. I know what is happening at this moment just because of my bad deed. Forgive me Ya Allah. One thing I know, I want to quit playing this game. I can bear all the consequences. Tonight, last siren buzz. We'll see.. I wonder how nothing last...

Heart never sing a same song. sometimes, they sing out loud, while the other time, they just imitate. Ice turn to be water, rock turn to be dust, wind turn to be storm , heart turn to be soul... and me turn to be the one with no heart.....

Call me complicated... call me freak.. erm~ it's me lol... I'm always love to be in conflict because I born with the brain damaged. I don't afraid of nothing except for My Creator. All this time, I cried because of Him. not because i'm scared, not because I'm lossing thing, not because unhappy, not because I weak. No! never. I cried because I I wonder how nothing last... and I pray to Allah to give me some strength to finish what I'd started.


I'm hurting people for being me. I'm sorry for that. I wonder how nothing last...I wonder how nothing last except for this feeling... I choose to feel this way forever.

"La haula wala quwata illa billahil aliyyil azim"

tiada ada daya yang lebih agung melainkan kuasa Allah- ** dan akulah hanya makhluk yang lemah.

song for this post...

One More Time

each day is so slow and so hard

because no matter how hard i try to reveal my heart

you can’t see it

i’m just resent the time that’s gone by

no matter how much time changes, i’m always sad

one more time

even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more

i’ll laugh for only you, i’ll cry for only you

one more time

like the hot sun of the sky

i’ll love all of you forever, only you

one more time

i miss the image of the warmhearted you standing beneath the umbrella

though i wipe these tears again, i’m always sad

one more time

even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more

i’ll laugh for only you, i’ll cry for only you

one more time

like the stars that shine brightly in the night sky

i’ll love all of you forever, only you

one more time

i promise that a tomorrow that we both share will find us

i promise that a happiness that we both share will find us

i’ll always be by your side

one more time

even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more

i’ll laugh for only you, i’ll cry for only you

one more time

like the hot sun of the sky

i’ll love all of you forever, only you

one more time oh my love for you

oh one more time oh my love for you

one more time

Alahai hati….

When You Are Ready To Love(starlight tears)
*From "Boys Over Flowers" drama OST


From the first time we met, I knew we would be friends
You had a different air than others that I knew
I am also alone in this world I've come to know
Finally, I've met someone like you

I know that I might've been a bit cold at times
But that was just the way I dealt with all my fears
You took the first step to show I don't have to be alone
And now I, I know I love you



I will be waiting for you
Don't care how long it may take
I will always be right here
When you need to laugh or cry

You let me know
When you are ready to love
And I will rush to your side
To sweep you into my arms


Maybe one day you'll know the love that I've kept inside
I know love comes with pain; it's so hard to erase
All that I'm asking is for you to let me stay here
Don't be scared; you can lean on me

Repeat Chorus

I know I've found the one when I look into your eyes
I will wait by your side till you can give me your heart



Lagu ni betul2 menyentuh hati….love this song…lirik die begitu mendalam….aku tujukan lagu ni buat seseorang…aku akan menanti kamu…akan menanti hari kita akan bersama…bila hati kamu menerimaku dan menyedariku disisimu selama ini…..

Day 1- my favorite song…

Ade byk lagu yang aku suke dgr….dari pelbagai genre….yelah..kite dgr lagu mestila mengikut mood kte…skrg mood aku agak tidak stabil skit..so lagu yang aku suka dengar adlah ktegori balada….hehehe..ianya dapat menenangkan fkiran aku yg beserabut…nil ah list serba sikit lagu yang aku dgr wat masa skrg….

1. Starlight Tears- Kim Yoo Kyung
   
2. Izinkan – Ve & Ruffedge
   
3. What should I do – Jang Geun Suk
   
4. Hanya ingin kau tahu – republic
   
5. Permata yang dicari – dehearty
   
6. Kerna sayang – Ve
   
7. Hati yang kau sakiti – rossa
8. wouldn't change a thing - demi lovato

30 days challenge

i'll take this challenge....hehehe....

Day 01 --- Your favorite song.

Day 02 — Your favorite movie.

Day 03 — Your favorite television program.

Day 04 — Your favorite book.

Day 05 — Your favorite quote.

Day 06 — Your favorite music video.

Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy.

Day 08 — Describe the style you had 10 years ago.

Day 09 — A photo you took.

Day 10 — Talk about a regret you have.

Day 11 — Share a story from your childhood.

Day 12 — Explain how you got one of your scars.

Day 13 — How do you think others view you?

Day 14 — Talk about the cuteness of your pets.

Day 15 — A poem you wrote.

Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly).

Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.

Day 18 — Tell us about your best friend.

Day 19 — A talent of yours.

Day 20 — A hobby of yours.

Day 21 — A recipe.

Day 22 — Your deepest fear.

Day 23 — Write a love letter to yourself.

Day 24 — Reveal your most guilty pleasure.

Day 25 — If you have tattoos, show them. If not, talk about the tattoos you want or why you don't think they are right for you.

Day 26 — Talk about the last "random act of kindness" you encountered.

Day 27 — The last thing that made you cry.

Day 28 — Say something to your 15 year old self.

Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days.

Day 30 — Share what you have learned, if anything, about yourself in the last 30 days.

aku dengan kekasih hatiku....sweet gitu...

gambar ni masa kat seremban.....hehehe.....

ni plak masa di kulim...time kenduri....

kami sentiasa sehati sejiwa.....bergelak ketawa bersama-sama....menangis bersama-sama dan juga bergado selalu...hehehhee...itulah kami berdua....

berbuka puasa kelas....wee...~~

cerita ni da lapok sbnarnyer....tapi aku tetp nk citer gak...hehehe..pada sem ni kami berbuka puasa di restoran asam manis....very sweet memory sbb dorg sambut birthday aku....hehehe...happy gler n very suprised....aku xberhenti2 bercerita ttg 2 smp kawan aku miza xlarat nk dgr...aku rasa boleh berdarah kot telinga dier mendengar cerita yang sama berulang-ulang kali....sorry miza...hehehe...aku ni xreti berceloteh banyak..sbb aku kan pendiam dan pemalu...hahaha...

inilah kami...hehehe..tapi xsumer yg ada...ade yg da balik..

inilah juadah kami...hehehe...steamboat...

makan time....wee~~

nilah suprise yg dibuat oleh kelas aku...sweet sgt..thanks guys...xkan lupakan smp biler2..

wee~~..birthday kami..heehe...me with fairus zariq

tiup lilin...hehehehe

berakhir la...lepas 2 sume balik ke maktab..hehehe.....besh sgt bersama korg...syg sgt korg sumer..hehehe...wee~~...happy...

cerita keliru seorang penakot.....

sudah lama rasanya aku da xmelawat n merawt blog aku nieyh...hehehe...

okay today aku nk citer ttg cerita keliru seorang penakot...

cerita ini tentang seorang gurl yang happy n begitu bahagia dengan hidup dier tanpa kehadiran seorang lelaki bernama kekasih...hehehe...tetapi tetiber....datang lah dua orang putera kayangan ingin melamar gurl ini menjadi suri di hati mereka....

gurl ini merasa sungguh takot dan keliru...kerana perjalanan cinta gurl ni sebelum ni semuanyer kecewa kerana orang ketiga...kirenye mcm gurl ni tutup pintu hati dier la pas 2.....

kedua-dua org putera ini tidak pernah berputus asa ingin memiliki hati gurl ini....

okay mari kiter bercerita ttg kedua2 putera ini...

seorang adalah kawan masa sekolah menengah di kl dulu....seorang yang begitu peramah, happy go lucky, baik hati, romantik...kalau gurl dgn dier mmg boleh cair la...hehehe...suke badget dier 2 macho...hehehe..padahal mmg macho pown...bakal pilot....namun....kelemahan dier adalah terlalu peramah dgn gurl smp bersyg2....gurl ni kuat jeles okay....hehehe...so xbley nk trima la terlebih keramahan dier 2...

okay now citer ttg putera hensem no.2 plak....dier ni senior time teknik dulu....kawan kepada abg angkat gurl ni...seorang yang manis,baik,gila2,suke buat lawak....n suke wat gurl 2 tersenyum...hehehe...xbrapa mengenali dier sgt..tapi ader something kat dier yg membuatkan gurl ni mcm 'stick' kat dier...hehehe...hebat kan....

gurl ni begitu buntu dan keliru samada harus menerima lamaran yg mana....

akhirnya gurl ni decide tok 'eliminate' putera yang pertama....kerana tau..mmg xboleh bertahan lama hbgn jika bersama...sbb dunia dan cara bergaul yang begitu berbeza.....maka tinggal la lagi seorang putara lagi yang masih menanti jawapan gurl ni....

walaupun baru kenal dgn dier rasa mcam da lama...hehehe...sbb dgn perangai gler2 dier 2 wat kan gurl ni sng dgn dier....tapi pada masa yang sama gurl ni takot nk bkk pintu hati dier tok putera ni...sbb gurl ni takot kecewa....

penakot kan gurl ni....untill now...gurl ni xbg lagi jwpan kepada putera 2...bagi gurl 2....dier rasa kalau ade jodoh xkemana...so....dier biarkan masa yang menentukan segala-galanya.....hehehe

tamat...

nilah rupe gurl yang penakot 2...hehehe