Everything changes just in a blink of eyes. I feel better like want to ran away from all of this. I'm sick of it. I'm sick to feel scared all the time. It is true that broken heart will heal?... if it true then why my heart still feel the same….still in the sad mode…I want my myself back…like old time…I miss all the laugh….and again I miss you…
Somehow, to stop loving someone is not an easy thing. It would take some time before I can accept the fact he is not mine anymore. Everything happens for a reason. I'm too drowning in my temptation of love make me forget my Rabb. I get my lesson. Ya Allah, I need your help to give me strength so that I can keep walking in this vicious world.
I've seen enough joy in everyone while I'm standing in misery side. What else I can do? I keep pretending that everything is ok but only god knows what deep inside there. Not being in relationship doesn't mean the end of the world. I do realised, if we are looking for Allah's love, it will last forever because our Rabb will always love us no matter what. Once we chasing human's love, it doesn't offer us a permanent joy.
Time is a great cure. Time will make us forget the pain. Time will give us more space to breath. Time will make us mature. Time will heal those broken-hearts. I always pray to Rabb mercy to sending me another love, so that I can forget this pain and breathing again. For now, I will make myself busy with my assignment and other thing. Help me to get rid out this painful memory. I would like to thanks to everyone who give me a lots of support, my bestiest; my rumate atikah, amal, didi, intan, nasriah, ikin, zahrin and of course all member of our group. I hope that our friendship will last forever…love you guys damn much you know…thanks for supporting me….i know I'm such a drama queen…hehehe…
I think, we always wish this life could be like a computer, we just can simply slam the delete button to erase the painful data/memory. We always wish we can but we cannot. I just realized that these memory will be a guidance to every of us in future, make us mature, let us be a better man. In Al-Quran, Rabb has promise to us that joy will come after pain. I believed so. I always believe... I'm looking forward for that moment...
Hasbi yallahu wa niqmal wakil..
~cukuplah Allah sebagai pembantuku. Aku tidak menginginkan selainnya~
song for this post....
I don't know what I should do at this moment. It seems pretty hard to understand what is really happening out there. Once upon a time, I can simply breathe the same air; I can speak the same language. However, at this moment, they had change. You are standing too far… I can't see you anymore. I wonder how nothing last.
I've been looking for very long time but for the time being, there is something is not working. Something missing likes incomplete part. Or it is a sign that I am the one who ignorance. I'm performing loser. I play dumb on purpose. I'm so sick. I'm missed the sign. Cannot turn back to read because I think it's too late... because I'm not that smart to understand. I just don't know how to be in that way because it's not my thing. I wonder how nothing last...
In the blink of eyes, we lost everything, they are gone; Love, life, money, pride, confidence is blow away. Hey~ listen!! Never choose to stay in the safe zone because you start losing everything. Do not choose to stay still watching the world moving because they never waiting for you because nothing last man… You better not talking because it's not working. I'm going nowhere hence its end tonight.... nothing last forever… I'm losing grip... I wonder how nothing last...
you can say no… say no… say no… and say no…I don't care... what should I?
Allah Hu Rabbi. I think it is the best time for me to look for some sign. I don't want to make my move. I want to play deaf and blind. I want to say yes all the time. Indeed, only Allah knows what inside there. I want to stay still. No backward, no forward. Let the world move on its own. I just want to watch from the dark spot. I wonder how nothing last...
Ya Allah, I'm the sinner who make a thousand of mistake. I know what is happening at this moment just because of my bad deed. Forgive me Ya Allah. One thing I know, I want to quit playing this game. I can bear all the consequences. Tonight, last siren buzz. We'll see.. I wonder how nothing last...
Heart never sing a same song. sometimes, they sing out loud, while the other time, they just imitate. Ice turn to be water, rock turn to be dust, wind turn to be storm , heart turn to be soul... and me turn to be the one with no heart.....
Call me complicated... call me freak.. erm~ it's me lol... I'm always love to be in conflict because I born with the brain damaged. I don't afraid of nothing except for My Creator. All this time, I cried because of Him. not because i'm scared, not because I'm lossing thing, not because unhappy, not because I weak. No! never. I cried because I I wonder how nothing last... and I pray to Allah to give me some strength to finish what I'd started.
I'm hurting people for being me. I'm sorry for that. I wonder how nothing last...I wonder how nothing last except for this feeling... I choose to feel this way forever.
"La haula wala quwata illa billahil aliyyil azim"
tiada ada daya yang lebih agung melainkan kuasa Allah- ** dan akulah hanya makhluk yang lemah.
song for this post...
Ade byk lagu yang aku suke dgr….dari pelbagai genre….yelah..kite dgr lagu mestila mengikut mood kte…skrg mood aku agak tidak stabil skit..so lagu yang aku suka dengar adlah ktegori balada….hehehe..ianya dapat menenangkan fkiran aku yg beserabut…nil ah list serba sikit lagu yang aku dgr wat masa skrg….
i'll take this challenge....hehehe....
Day 01 --- Your favorite song.
Day 02 — Your favorite movie.
Day 03 — Your favorite television program.
Day 04 — Your favorite book.
Day 05 — Your favorite quote.
Day 06 — Your favorite music video.
Day 07 — A photo that makes you happy.
Day 08 — Describe the style you had 10 years ago.
Day 09 — A photo you took.
Day 10 — Talk about a regret you have.
Day 11 — Share a story from your childhood.
Day 12 — Explain how you got one of your scars.
Day 13 — How do you think others view you?
Day 14 — Talk about the cuteness of your pets.
Day 15 — A poem you wrote.
Day 16 — A song that makes you cry (or nearly).
Day 17 — An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.) that is your favorite.
Day 18 — Tell us about your best friend.
Day 19 — A talent of yours.
Day 20 — A hobby of yours.
Day 21 — A recipe.
Day 22 — Your deepest fear.
Day 23 — Write a love letter to yourself.
Day 24 — Reveal your most guilty pleasure.
Day 25 — If you have tattoos, show them. If not, talk about the tattoos you want or why you don't think they are right for you.
Day 26 — Talk about the last "random act of kindness" you encountered.
Day 27 — The last thing that made you cry.
Day 28 — Say something to your 15 year old self.
Day 29 — Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days.
Day 30 — Share what you have learned, if anything, about yourself in the last 30 days.
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